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Blissful

One of my very favorite things in the world is that moment after nursing (any of my babies... not just baby Z-- though she is the reason I'm bringing it up ;)) when they look up at me, lock eyes with me, and sweetly smile..... then roll over (when nursing in bed) and snuggle in peaceful slumber. Baby Z's tiny little bum sticking up with her little feets tucked under her and her sweet hand still holding on to my night shirt. I just wanted to leave her there and snuggle right up to sleep. But, I scooped her up and snuggled her all the way back to her crib-- and stared at her for a good 20 minutes, just watching her sleep..... totally a blissful moment. And in my heart, I was overcome with thoughts/prayers about who she will grow to become... praying she will grow up to love Jesus as much as I do-- that she will be a servant to others-- that she will seek to find everything she is in Christ.

Such sweetness and blessing my children bring to me. Just yesterday afternoon, we had some worship music playing... baby Z was in her swing and E was helping pick up some toys. I ran to the other room and when I returned, E was dancing and worshiping all around baby Z. She was smiling so huge as he was singing, praising, and dancing. I watched for a moment and when he noticed me, he said "Mama... Z LOVES worshiping Jesus! See! Watch her!" then to her "Don't you Z?? Don't you just LOVE worshiping Jesus?" I love that he already engages her in a way that points her to Jesus. My heart was soaring. My sweet, sweet E... I pray his wonder and the delightful joy he finds in every day continue to grow in him.

Today was a snow day for everyone. My love tried to get into work but it took him over 40 minutes to get out 1 mile on 7... so he turned around and came home. Can't say I was disappointed. It is always a treat when he gets to stay home during the week...... At any rate, he was gracious to allow me to sleep late (I laid there as LONG as I could-- 9:30-- felt like noon) but when I emerged, the kids were happily drawing. I came over to see what they had drawn-- I'm still not sure who it was that initiated the activity (though I am pretty confidently guessing Miss E)-- and found that G, E, and Miss E had each drawn a picture of themselves with Jesus.

















They asked me to draw my own picture with Jesus.... :) I can't help but smile all over when I see their interpretations of Jesus and his relationship with them. So sweet and simple. So honest and lovely. Its everything I desire my relationship with him to be.

The house is quieted down for the night... and today my heart is full of sweet, blissful moments that make me so thankful for ALL God has given us. From early mornings nursing baby Z, to worship dancing all over the livingroom, to seeing baby Z blissfully cuddled up on her Papa's chest-- it all points to Jesus. So beautifully the Lord is continuing to write his grace all over my life. What fantastic joy!

I wrote this poem a few years ago... and I just love it. It says it all without any reserve.

There are so many things to say
But Jesus, I cannot find the words.
Nothing can explain
the journey I took to find you.
All of my humanity
screams out in vain!
How you could ever love
this life of shame.....

But your arms open
and I see your face.
Your love shines deeper-
you're full of grace.
Your hands reach out
and touch my fainted heart.
You speak so softly
saying "We will never part".
The door is open,
Your warmth floods in.
Your mercy overtakes me--
You cleanse away the sin.
You lift my hands
my eyes meet your face,
You look sweetly upon me
there's no disgrace.

You took this thing-
this mound of clay
and changed it within
and it's beautiful today.
You constantly touch
and knead and shave.
You sacrificed so much
so I might be saved.

You never gave up
on this once lost soul.
You always had hope
and you filled the whole.

Comments

  1. LesMarch 2, 2012 at 3:32 PM

    You bless me Jenn. Your words and poems and perspective on life bring me to tears and cause me to want to be better. Thank you.

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  2. JennMarch 2, 2012 at 3:38 PM

    And there are so many things about my friendship with you that do the same for me. :) You're an amazing encouragement to me!

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  3. LesMarch 3, 2012 at 11:21 PM

    Thank you=)

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  4. KheMarch 13, 2012 at 10:33 PM

    I was just drawn in to re-read this post -- to know that you shared one of your own personal writings, I felt privileged to read it. Your heart pours into your writing, through your words and I love that blessing God has given to you. "You took this thing-this mound of clay, and changed it within and it's beautiful today." He truly has made you beautiful inside and out.

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